1 00:00:17,930 --> 00:00:19,010 Feel God. 2 00:00:47,210 --> 00:00:51,710 After an awful lot of miserable years in the closet, I'm finally coming out and 3 00:00:51,710 --> 00:00:54,950 telling people that I am a homosexual and I don't mind it. 4 00:01:03,490 --> 00:01:09,410 This is the first time I felt like a full woman, besides being in love with 5 00:01:09,410 --> 00:01:10,430 lover. 6 00:01:17,420 --> 00:01:23,260 I think in New York there's about a million gay people, and I think if 7 00:01:23,260 --> 00:01:24,860 comes out, it would be much easier. 8 00:01:32,800 --> 00:01:33,320 I'd 9 00:01:33,320 --> 00:01:42,180 like 10 00:01:42,180 --> 00:01:45,100 to see more gay people become proud enough and confident enough. 11 00:01:45,470 --> 00:01:50,770 to make an open stand and not care and not give up their power to 12 00:01:50,810 --> 00:01:52,370 Well, that happened a long time ago. 13 00:01:53,430 --> 00:01:56,730 That's all I think about. I mean, I've been liberated all my life. 14 00:01:57,150 --> 00:02:00,350 I ain't scared of nobody. I've never been high in no process. I've been gay 15 00:02:00,350 --> 00:02:02,490 since I was so small. 16 00:02:02,770 --> 00:02:07,250 Gay liberation is just not being ashamed of what you are, and being gay is a 17 00:02:07,250 --> 00:02:08,250 very natural thing. 18 00:03:05,280 --> 00:03:09,060 Now, you have three important themes from the play on the board. What I would 19 00:03:09,060 --> 00:03:13,740 like you to do for the rest of the period is to pick one theme, write a 20 00:03:13,740 --> 00:03:19,840 essay in your own words describing how you feel that this theme applies and is 21 00:03:19,840 --> 00:03:23,220 as meaningful to our present -day situation as it was in the time of 22 00:03:23,220 --> 00:03:24,220 Shakespeare. 23 00:03:24,780 --> 00:03:25,780 Okay? 24 00:03:26,420 --> 00:03:29,960 And just to keep you from vegetating over the weekend... 25 00:04:28,800 --> 00:04:31,120 Hey. Good to see you. Hey, good to see you. 26 00:04:32,000 --> 00:04:33,900 David, I'd like you to meet Huey, my latest. 27 00:04:34,160 --> 00:04:38,000 Huey, say hello to David, one of my very oldest friends from Schenectady. Hello. 28 00:04:38,180 --> 00:04:39,180 Hi. 29 00:04:41,480 --> 00:04:43,280 Wow, would you look at the guy who just walked in? 30 00:04:44,680 --> 00:04:45,680 Blunt. 31 00:04:48,300 --> 00:04:50,060 Oh, you should be so lucky. 32 00:04:51,820 --> 00:04:53,300 He looks conceited anyway. 33 00:04:54,620 --> 00:04:55,620 Not bad. 34 00:07:25,550 --> 00:07:28,450 Hey, come on. Cut that out. I'm just being effective. 35 00:07:29,090 --> 00:07:31,950 Yeah, I know, but that went out in the 50s. 36 00:07:32,570 --> 00:07:33,570 Oh? 37 00:07:34,530 --> 00:07:35,970 I hadn't heard. 38 00:07:37,910 --> 00:07:38,910 Thanks. 39 00:07:40,310 --> 00:07:41,610 Hey, how old are you anyway? 40 00:07:42,370 --> 00:07:43,370 23 or so? 41 00:07:45,150 --> 00:07:46,150 26, actually. 42 00:07:47,270 --> 00:07:48,370 You don't look that old. 43 00:07:49,770 --> 00:07:51,190 You ought to be ashamed of yourself. 44 00:07:51,610 --> 00:07:54,630 A dirty old man like you seducing a young guy like me. 45 00:07:58,469 --> 00:07:59,469 How old are you? 46 00:08:00,550 --> 00:08:01,550 23. 47 00:08:04,210 --> 00:08:05,290 How long have you been out? 48 00:08:07,450 --> 00:08:09,990 I suppose since prep school. 49 00:08:11,150 --> 00:08:14,770 I still make it with chicks once in a while. It's not all that bad. 50 00:08:16,110 --> 00:08:17,230 But I know what I prefer. 51 00:08:20,250 --> 00:08:21,250 And you? 52 00:08:21,430 --> 00:08:22,430 What? 53 00:08:22,570 --> 00:08:23,570 How long? 54 00:08:27,180 --> 00:08:30,400 I've known I was gay for a couple of years, but if you mean practicing for 55 00:08:30,400 --> 00:08:31,400 about the last six months. 56 00:08:32,280 --> 00:08:33,280 I thought so. 57 00:08:34,780 --> 00:08:35,780 Refreshing. 58 00:08:41,260 --> 00:08:42,880 I had a big religious hang -up. 59 00:08:43,900 --> 00:08:45,680 I was even a monk for a couple of years. 60 00:08:46,760 --> 00:08:47,760 A what? 61 00:08:49,000 --> 00:08:50,400 A monk in a monastery. 62 00:08:51,300 --> 00:08:52,300 God, how great. 63 00:08:53,400 --> 00:08:54,400 Thanks. 64 00:08:55,880 --> 00:08:58,300 I was still going to Mass when I first came to New York. 65 00:09:00,220 --> 00:09:07,220 But after a while, when I accepted being gay and realized, and 66 00:09:07,220 --> 00:09:11,980 finally came out, I guess, none of it made any sense to me anymore. 67 00:09:17,260 --> 00:09:21,100 The church is a pretty straight business, you know. 68 00:09:21,930 --> 00:09:25,910 Bible doesn't have anything nice to say about guys who did sex with other guys 69 00:09:25,910 --> 00:09:32,770 The church generously 70 00:09:32,770 --> 00:09:39,170 offered me two choices either a life of religious celibacy or life of 71 00:09:39,170 --> 00:09:45,950 sexual abstinence in the world some choice, yeah, I Was 72 00:09:45,950 --> 00:09:48,370 crazy to think I could go through life without sex anyway 73 00:09:51,319 --> 00:09:54,380 Anyway, the whole thing left me with a bad taste in my mouth about God. 74 00:09:56,740 --> 00:10:02,180 Like he's either sadistic or incompetent, if he's out there at all. 75 00:10:06,460 --> 00:10:09,680 But I don't think you're interested in getting into my theology. 76 00:10:11,140 --> 00:10:15,480 Well, look, I'm flying out of here in the morning for a business meeting in 77 00:10:15,480 --> 00:10:17,120 Cleveland in a week's stay with my folks. 78 00:10:19,040 --> 00:10:20,040 I get the hint. 79 00:10:20,939 --> 00:10:23,980 No, really, I'm not kidding. The plane ticket's in there on the desk. Go sleep 80 00:10:23,980 --> 00:10:24,980 here. I believe you. 81 00:10:26,540 --> 00:10:29,100 Well, I'd better get out of here and let you get some sleep. 82 00:10:39,040 --> 00:10:40,640 Do you think we'll ever see each other again? 83 00:10:44,180 --> 00:10:45,180 I don't know. 84 00:10:45,380 --> 00:10:46,380 What do you think? 85 00:10:47,400 --> 00:10:48,520 I'd like to see you again. 86 00:10:51,790 --> 00:10:54,990 When I get back into town, I'll give you a call and we'll see what happens, 87 00:10:55,130 --> 00:10:56,130 okay? Okay. 88 00:10:56,770 --> 00:10:57,589 Come on. 89 00:10:57,590 --> 00:10:59,650 Be quiet. Let me get some sleep. 90 00:11:22,280 --> 00:11:23,320 I thought you were somebody else. 91 00:11:58,440 --> 00:12:00,020 Hey, John, have you seen Marie and the kid lately? 92 00:12:00,380 --> 00:12:01,860 I stopped by on Tuesday. 93 00:12:02,420 --> 00:12:04,220 Marie's still down in the mountain fishing. 94 00:12:04,580 --> 00:12:06,900 Well, I'll see you Monday, okay? All right, Mark. Have a nice weekend. 95 00:12:07,200 --> 00:12:08,200 Yeah, right. 96 00:12:08,420 --> 00:12:09,860 I took Sammy a frisbee. 97 00:12:10,280 --> 00:12:11,500 You know, the kid's a genius. 98 00:12:57,150 --> 00:12:58,150 Dave? 99 00:13:00,070 --> 00:13:01,070 Yeah. 100 00:13:01,410 --> 00:13:02,410 Half an hour? 101 00:13:03,230 --> 00:13:04,310 I'm sorry, Valerie. 102 00:13:04,650 --> 00:13:05,650 Sorry, bye. 103 00:13:05,930 --> 00:13:06,909 All right, bye -bye. 104 00:13:06,910 --> 00:13:07,910 Bye. 105 00:13:12,310 --> 00:13:19,110 Get your return. 106 00:13:24,550 --> 00:13:26,110 Hey, I thought you said you had a roommate. 107 00:13:26,570 --> 00:13:28,510 I do, but he's hardly ever here. 108 00:13:29,030 --> 00:13:31,290 He stays over at his chicken place almost all the time. 109 00:13:34,850 --> 00:13:35,990 He even sleeps there. 110 00:13:36,290 --> 00:13:37,390 How convenient. 111 00:13:38,530 --> 00:13:39,530 He's straight? 112 00:13:39,650 --> 00:13:40,650 I hope so. 113 00:13:40,970 --> 00:13:42,450 I mean, does he know you're seeing him? 114 00:13:44,410 --> 00:13:47,350 Yeah, but it doesn't matter. He just needs somebody to help out with the 115 00:13:47,770 --> 00:13:48,770 Until they get married. 116 00:13:50,310 --> 00:13:51,710 They're getting pretty serious, I guess. 117 00:13:52,410 --> 00:13:54,250 Sounds like they're trying to ruin a good relationship. 118 00:14:02,160 --> 00:14:03,820 I'm too excited I can't eat any of this. 119 00:14:06,200 --> 00:14:09,080 I don't have any appetite. 120 00:16:49,960 --> 00:16:51,040 I think I'm falling for you. 121 00:16:52,200 --> 00:16:54,760 Christ, what are you, some kind of romantic nut or something? 122 00:16:56,160 --> 00:16:58,200 You're a pretty good fuck for a former monk, you know. 123 00:16:58,980 --> 00:17:01,500 I suppose that's all you smart -ass shailies know about. 124 00:17:02,000 --> 00:17:05,140 Oh. Well, thank you, Miss Allie McGross. 125 00:17:29,390 --> 00:17:30,470 How much do you love me? 126 00:17:31,130 --> 00:17:32,150 Ah, cut it out, huh? 127 00:17:32,910 --> 00:17:34,710 I'm not even sure I believe in love at all. 128 00:17:35,650 --> 00:17:38,850 But I feel it. I know I shouldn't ask, but still... Still nothing. 129 00:17:39,830 --> 00:17:41,350 Look, we enjoy each other, right? 130 00:17:41,790 --> 00:17:43,470 We have fun together, and that's all. 131 00:17:45,170 --> 00:17:47,610 Love means never having to say you're in love. 132 00:18:12,140 --> 00:18:14,180 Mark, have you ever been involved with anyone before? 133 00:18:14,820 --> 00:18:15,820 Before what? 134 00:18:17,660 --> 00:18:20,160 Before now. Come on, just answer the question. 135 00:18:21,660 --> 00:18:22,660 No, not really. 136 00:18:23,300 --> 00:18:24,920 I never wanted to be particularly. 137 00:18:25,940 --> 00:18:28,980 I guess there were a couple of guys along the way, but nothing ever worked 138 00:18:29,580 --> 00:18:33,980 I'm really not up for that sort of thing yet. Oh, great. So what am I supposed 139 00:18:33,980 --> 00:18:34,980 to do? Just wait? 140 00:18:35,300 --> 00:18:37,200 Be just another guy along the way? 141 00:18:37,560 --> 00:18:39,860 There you go again, pushing this romantic thing. 142 00:18:40,780 --> 00:18:42,860 Why do you have to be so intense all the time? 143 00:18:44,340 --> 00:18:47,880 Look, I'm flattered that you'd like to include me in this fairytale world 144 00:18:47,880 --> 00:18:50,040 building up, but it's just not my line. 145 00:19:44,840 --> 00:19:45,840 All right, so I'm involved. 146 00:19:46,360 --> 00:19:47,360 What more do you want? 147 00:19:47,620 --> 00:19:51,220 Well, for a starter, why don't you knock off the Joe Coo crap and admit we're 148 00:19:51,220 --> 00:19:52,220 lovers? 149 00:19:52,280 --> 00:19:55,380 I mean, what else do you call it when two guys are seeing each other and have 150 00:19:55,380 --> 00:19:57,940 really great sex, and this goes on for months? 151 00:19:58,840 --> 00:20:00,040 Who do you think you're kidding? 152 00:20:00,660 --> 00:20:03,240 Come on. Out with it! God damn it! 153 00:20:04,760 --> 00:20:05,760 Ow! 154 00:20:06,420 --> 00:20:09,260 Wait! Say it! Wait a minute. No. 155 00:20:09,920 --> 00:20:10,920 Say it. 156 00:20:12,740 --> 00:20:13,740 Okay. 157 00:20:14,510 --> 00:20:16,210 I love you. Again. 158 00:20:17,370 --> 00:20:21,770 I love you. Now let go of me. Now once more for good measure. 159 00:20:22,510 --> 00:20:25,490 What the hell? Now what do you think this is? 160 00:20:26,310 --> 00:20:27,310 Once more. 161 00:20:28,090 --> 00:20:32,230 Okay. You're with my fucking romantic friend. 162 00:20:32,810 --> 00:20:33,930 I love you. 163 00:20:34,490 --> 00:20:35,690 Whatever that means. 164 00:21:11,240 --> 00:21:18,080 We are gathered here in the presence of God to join together this man and this 165 00:21:18,080 --> 00:21:24,900 woman in holy matrimony, which is an honorable estate ordained of God unto 166 00:21:24,900 --> 00:21:30,300 fulfilling and perfecting of the love of man and woman in mutual honor and 167 00:21:30,300 --> 00:21:36,480 forbearance. And therefore, it is not by any to be taken in hand lightly 168 00:21:36,480 --> 00:21:39,820 or thoughtlessly, but reverently. 169 00:21:41,439 --> 00:21:44,400 discreetly, soberly, and in the fear of God. 170 00:21:47,340 --> 00:21:53,000 Into this holy estate, these two persons come now to be joined. 171 00:21:54,000 --> 00:22:00,940 Therefore, if any man can show just cause why they may not lawfully be 172 00:22:00,940 --> 00:22:07,380 together, let him now speak, or else hereafter forever hold his peace. 173 00:22:08,560 --> 00:22:14,700 Marriage is therefore not by any to be undertaken lightly or ill -advisedly, 174 00:22:14,740 --> 00:22:21,280 but seriously and prayerfully, duly considering the purposes for which it is 175 00:22:21,280 --> 00:22:27,400 ordained, that husband and wife may give to each other lifelong companionship, 176 00:22:27,420 --> 00:22:31,940 help, and comfort, both in prosperity and adversity. 177 00:22:33,360 --> 00:22:38,360 that God may hallow and direct the natural instincts and affections created 178 00:22:38,360 --> 00:22:44,340 himself and redeemed in Christ, and that marriage being thus held in honor, 179 00:22:44,460 --> 00:22:48,580 human society may stand upon firm foundations. 180 00:23:26,340 --> 00:23:27,520 Good old movie. 181 00:23:27,920 --> 00:23:28,920 All righty. 182 00:23:29,440 --> 00:23:30,440 What do you want to see? 183 00:23:33,600 --> 00:23:34,600 That's gone. 184 00:23:35,060 --> 00:23:37,100 Hey, how about this thing with Robert Redford? 185 00:23:37,360 --> 00:23:39,600 Okay. Even if it's bad, he's good to look at. 186 00:23:39,820 --> 00:23:40,820 What time's it going? 187 00:23:42,200 --> 00:23:45,260 Twelve, two, four, six. 188 00:24:54,540 --> 00:24:59,760 I'm not going in yet. You're not going in yet. Oh, Linda, look at you. You've 189 00:24:59,760 --> 00:25:01,360 got it all over you. 190 00:25:01,700 --> 00:25:04,340 Hey, lady, how would you like it if somebody did that to you? 191 00:25:04,660 --> 00:25:08,240 Hey, just shut up and mind your own business, all right? 192 00:25:09,800 --> 00:25:10,800 What a bitch. 193 00:25:12,620 --> 00:25:15,620 You're a slob. That's what you are. You're a slob. Linda. 194 00:25:57,070 --> 00:25:59,170 I gotta use the stool. Come on, cut it out. I'm gonna be late. 195 00:25:59,410 --> 00:26:00,870 I have to get dressed too, you know. 196 00:26:01,070 --> 00:26:04,950 Oh, does the old man need the stool now to put his socks on? What am I supposed 197 00:26:04,950 --> 00:26:06,830 to do? Perch on one leg like a crane? 198 00:26:07,110 --> 00:26:10,890 Hell no. Just stand there like this, take your sock and slip it on. I hope 199 00:26:10,890 --> 00:26:11,890 break your neck. Look. 200 00:26:20,190 --> 00:26:21,190 Damn. 201 00:26:22,610 --> 00:26:24,070 Have you seen my blue shirt? 202 00:26:24,560 --> 00:26:27,340 No, I haven't seen your blue shirt. Did you get the laundry out Saturday? Did I 203 00:26:27,340 --> 00:26:29,520 get the laundry out Saturday? Did I get the laundry out Saturday? 204 00:26:30,680 --> 00:26:33,760 Why don't you just stay in bed in the morning until I'm finished drinking, 205 00:26:34,000 --> 00:26:35,000 Fuck you. 206 00:26:35,640 --> 00:26:38,760 Just see if I bother to get up and give you my comforting presence at the 207 00:26:38,760 --> 00:26:39,760 breakfast table anymore. 208 00:26:40,220 --> 00:26:43,760 There's hardly enough time to talk. Besides, who wants to talk in the 209 00:26:43,760 --> 00:26:44,760 anyway? All right. 210 00:26:45,780 --> 00:26:46,800 Just see if I care. 211 00:27:00,560 --> 00:27:03,280 Jennifer, could you bring me the constant file before you go to London? 212 00:27:08,520 --> 00:27:13,200 Yeah. If it had gone to thee, I know mine would have taught thine heart to 213 00:27:13,200 --> 00:27:14,200 more pity unto me. 214 00:27:15,400 --> 00:27:19,200 But love, alas, at one first blow did shiver it as glass. 215 00:27:20,840 --> 00:27:26,660 Those pieces still, though they be not unite, and now as broken glasses show a 216 00:27:26,660 --> 00:27:28,320 hundred lesser faces, so... 217 00:27:29,070 --> 00:27:33,510 My rags of heart can wish like and adore 218 00:27:33,510 --> 00:27:39,730 But after one such love can love no more 219 00:28:52,270 --> 00:28:53,270 What are you doing? 220 00:28:54,030 --> 00:28:55,030 Transplanting these. 221 00:28:57,830 --> 00:28:59,150 Hey, I think I'll go out for a walk. 222 00:28:59,750 --> 00:29:00,750 It's a great day. 223 00:29:01,410 --> 00:29:03,210 Hey, wait a minute. I'll go with you. I'm almost finished. 224 00:29:04,470 --> 00:29:05,470 You don't have to. 225 00:29:05,570 --> 00:29:06,570 But I want to. 226 00:29:09,890 --> 00:29:11,950 Well, you know, actually, I think I'd prefer to go alone. 227 00:29:14,110 --> 00:29:15,110 Oh? 228 00:29:16,150 --> 00:29:17,150 I'll only be a little while. 229 00:29:23,820 --> 00:29:24,820 Mark, what's wrong? 230 00:29:26,040 --> 00:29:27,040 Nothing. 231 00:29:27,780 --> 00:29:28,780 Really, nothing. 232 00:29:30,300 --> 00:29:32,460 Look, I just feel like being alone, that's all. 233 00:29:34,660 --> 00:29:36,300 Okay. You want to skip dinner? 234 00:29:37,520 --> 00:29:38,520 Hell no. 235 00:29:39,240 --> 00:29:41,020 Look, I'll only be gone for a little while. 236 00:29:41,780 --> 00:29:43,700 Stop creating things that aren't there, okay? 237 00:29:47,020 --> 00:29:48,020 I'm sorry. 238 00:29:50,020 --> 00:29:51,020 Okay. 239 00:29:54,760 --> 00:29:55,760 See you in a little while. 240 00:30:14,920 --> 00:30:15,920 Hello? 241 00:30:19,260 --> 00:30:20,260 Hi. 242 00:30:20,360 --> 00:30:21,360 Did you have a nice dinner? 243 00:30:24,219 --> 00:30:25,420 Snoopy taking good care of you? 244 00:30:27,660 --> 00:30:29,420 Yeah, that's more than I can say for you. 245 00:30:31,400 --> 00:30:31,800 Anything 246 00:30:31,800 --> 00:30:40,940 good 247 00:30:40,940 --> 00:30:41,940 on? 248 00:30:42,220 --> 00:30:43,660 There's no movie coming on later. 249 00:30:57,130 --> 00:30:58,190 Try to kissy face me. 250 00:31:00,090 --> 00:31:01,090 Hey. 251 00:31:03,310 --> 00:31:05,650 You like, uh, futzing around a little bit? 252 00:31:05,970 --> 00:31:07,050 Huh? Huh? 253 00:31:07,450 --> 00:31:08,409 I don't know. 254 00:31:08,410 --> 00:31:10,910 I feel fine just being with you here like this. 255 00:31:11,170 --> 00:31:12,170 Oh. 256 00:31:12,630 --> 00:31:13,970 So now he's going to punish me? 257 00:31:14,230 --> 00:31:15,230 No, I'm not. 258 00:31:15,630 --> 00:31:17,730 I'm just not into it right now, that's all. 259 00:31:22,570 --> 00:31:23,570 Well. 260 00:31:25,510 --> 00:31:26,530 So I guess... 261 00:31:26,920 --> 00:31:32,440 You're going to make me rape you, is that it? I want to watch the movie. 262 00:31:32,900 --> 00:31:34,100 Will you stop it? 263 00:31:35,460 --> 00:31:37,320 Well, shit, you never used to talk like that. 264 00:31:37,640 --> 00:31:40,380 Christ, we had sex three times already this week. 265 00:31:41,040 --> 00:31:43,060 That's more than we had in the good old honeymoon days. 266 00:31:44,720 --> 00:31:46,600 Besides, I'm a little sore, if you don't mind. 267 00:31:55,340 --> 00:31:57,080 Here, Snoopy, you take care of him. 268 00:31:58,220 --> 00:32:03,400 Oh, poor Snoopy. You want to have sex with me? 269 00:32:04,800 --> 00:32:05,800 Hey, 270 00:32:06,840 --> 00:32:08,820 you want to have a threesome? 271 00:32:09,660 --> 00:32:13,700 You, me, and Snoopy? Huh? Go get him, Snoopy. Get him. Come on. Come on. 272 00:32:24,140 --> 00:32:26,880 I've had enough of this. I'm going to bed. I'm sick and tired. Come on, watch 273 00:32:26,880 --> 00:32:27,880 the movie. 274 00:32:28,120 --> 00:32:29,120 Come on. 275 00:32:29,180 --> 00:32:30,560 No. Please, 276 00:32:32,220 --> 00:32:34,080 you'll like it. You knocked over my beard. 277 00:32:34,340 --> 00:32:35,340 No, I'm sorry. 278 00:32:38,760 --> 00:32:39,760 Well, okay. 279 00:32:40,300 --> 00:32:41,300 Just for a little bit. 280 00:32:43,700 --> 00:32:46,000 God, I don't know why I had to marry such a schmaltz. 281 00:32:47,300 --> 00:32:49,740 You should just be glad you're married at all, period. 282 00:33:00,490 --> 00:33:01,650 And I didn't bring any chicken with me. 283 00:33:02,030 --> 00:33:03,030 You did, too. 284 00:33:03,230 --> 00:33:05,150 I beg your pardon. He's over 18. 285 00:33:07,010 --> 00:33:08,010 Barely. 286 00:33:10,490 --> 00:33:15,090 There's a nice thing about a Pinot Chardonnay the other night. It was 287 00:33:15,090 --> 00:33:16,090 was only about $2. 288 00:33:17,170 --> 00:33:19,290 It's like a, you know, it was like a $4. 289 00:33:20,130 --> 00:33:21,230 Me? Yes, I did. 290 00:33:21,490 --> 00:33:22,870 Oh, thank you. 291 00:33:23,510 --> 00:33:27,530 This is so good. It really is. Thank you. It's a great topic. 292 00:33:27,910 --> 00:33:28,649 Do you cook? 293 00:33:28,650 --> 00:33:30,770 A little bit. A little bit. It does most of the cooking. 294 00:33:31,450 --> 00:33:32,950 Mark, do you want some more Grand Marnier? 295 00:33:33,350 --> 00:33:34,350 What? 296 00:33:34,730 --> 00:33:38,270 I think I'm getting sick. While I'm up, does anyone want more coffee? 297 00:33:38,670 --> 00:33:41,370 Oh, please. One? Yeah. Two? I do. Three? 298 00:33:41,670 --> 00:33:44,810 Fine. Why don't we move into the other room where it's more comfortable and 299 00:33:44,810 --> 00:33:45,810 serve you in there. 300 00:33:48,810 --> 00:33:51,590 So, this is the coveted new linen you bought in Brussels. 301 00:33:51,990 --> 00:33:53,650 Someone finally noticed. 302 00:33:55,490 --> 00:33:57,010 It's very nice. It is. 303 00:33:57,290 --> 00:33:59,030 Davey, will you help me clear off the table? Sure. 304 00:34:00,470 --> 00:34:03,330 You'd better keep a protective eye out for your jewels, Davey. 305 00:34:07,410 --> 00:34:14,230 Word of advice. If you want a marriage to work, you have to own something 306 00:34:14,230 --> 00:34:15,230 substantial together. 307 00:34:16,560 --> 00:34:19,900 Miguel and I were thinking about taking a house at the Grove next summer. 308 00:34:20,400 --> 00:34:22,120 That's not quite what I meant. 309 00:34:24,520 --> 00:34:28,560 Mark, are you actually going to leave David alone out there with that old 310 00:34:29,380 --> 00:34:32,679 Charles isn't nearly so bad as Alan here makes out he is. He just likes to 311 00:34:32,679 --> 00:34:34,040 pretend around you two, that's all. 312 00:34:35,260 --> 00:34:36,820 Charles and I are different, you know. 313 00:34:37,540 --> 00:34:39,540 I don't need the sex that he does. 314 00:34:39,860 --> 00:34:43,739 With him, it's sort of a confirmation that he's still desirable. 315 00:34:45,639 --> 00:34:48,580 I used to be hellishly jealous when we first got together. 316 00:34:48,980 --> 00:34:52,380 I made him throw away his old telephone numbers and his dirty magazines. 317 00:34:53,780 --> 00:34:56,960 But that doesn't change somebody's basic nature. 318 00:34:57,900 --> 00:35:00,160 There has to be a lot of give and take in a marriage. 319 00:35:00,520 --> 00:35:03,780 I know I'm a bitch, and he just has to put up with it. 320 00:35:04,240 --> 00:35:06,900 Life is, as they say, full of compromises. 321 00:35:07,620 --> 00:35:11,140 At this point, I could care less if he brought a different trick in here every 322 00:35:11,140 --> 00:35:13,620 night. But let him bring the same... 323 00:35:14,060 --> 00:35:18,460 dewy -eyed little innocent in here twice, and begin acting like he's 324 00:35:18,460 --> 00:35:22,980 about it. And I managed to wheedle myself into that bed right between them. 325 00:35:23,700 --> 00:35:27,920 I've put five years of hard work into this marriage, and I don't intend to let 326 00:35:27,920 --> 00:35:30,000 anyone or anything fuck it up for me. 327 00:35:31,520 --> 00:35:33,860 Well, I don't know. 328 00:35:34,980 --> 00:35:38,540 But it seems to me that we're all a little depressed over these sordid 329 00:35:38,540 --> 00:35:42,060 revelations. There's nothing sordid about it. It's just the way things are. 330 00:35:50,350 --> 00:35:51,350 More coffee? 331 00:35:51,870 --> 00:35:52,950 You're so quiet. 332 00:35:53,330 --> 00:35:55,490 You haven't said two words all evening. 333 00:35:56,230 --> 00:36:00,190 I think Miguel is a little bit overawed by the surroundings. 334 00:36:00,830 --> 00:36:02,370 And he's kind of shy. 335 00:36:02,750 --> 00:36:04,390 Well, with his looks, he shouldn't be. 336 00:36:04,670 --> 00:36:05,348 I know. 337 00:36:05,350 --> 00:36:07,710 Thank you. You have a very lovely apartment. 338 00:36:08,170 --> 00:36:09,170 Thank you. 339 00:36:09,990 --> 00:36:11,470 Are we still going to the bar? 340 00:36:11,730 --> 00:36:15,070 As you promised, Eddie, we meet him. Let me finish my coffee and we'll go. 341 00:36:15,710 --> 00:36:17,270 Anybody out there to join us? 342 00:36:18,090 --> 00:36:19,350 Good Lord, no. 343 00:36:20,140 --> 00:36:23,260 Edgar and I haven't been out together in a bar in ages. 344 00:36:23,960 --> 00:36:28,180 Everyone standing around like statues and that deafening music. It gets worse 345 00:36:28,180 --> 00:36:30,960 every year. I should think you'd be tired of it by now. 346 00:36:32,760 --> 00:36:34,360 Well, I am, sort of. 347 00:36:35,620 --> 00:36:37,140 But Miguel wants to go. 348 00:36:39,480 --> 00:36:40,480 Such devotion. 349 00:36:42,240 --> 00:36:45,680 Well, as they say, may we never have it worse. 350 00:36:46,980 --> 00:36:48,120 Who says that? 351 00:36:49,130 --> 00:36:50,130 I do. 352 00:36:51,750 --> 00:36:55,310 I just don't like spending my Saturday nights with a bunch of faggots, that's 353 00:36:55,310 --> 00:36:58,490 all. If you weren't so goddamn critical of all of our friends. 354 00:36:59,050 --> 00:37:00,050 Whose friends? 355 00:37:00,710 --> 00:37:01,990 All right, my friends. 356 00:37:03,130 --> 00:37:05,910 But we've been with Alan before. Why the sudden change? 357 00:37:06,210 --> 00:37:08,030 David, I never really liked him that much. 358 00:37:08,450 --> 00:37:10,770 I only put up with him because he was your friend. 359 00:37:11,710 --> 00:37:13,270 Mark, sit down. Come on. 360 00:37:13,610 --> 00:37:14,610 Please? 361 00:37:21,029 --> 00:37:22,830 Something's really been bugging you lately. 362 00:37:24,210 --> 00:37:26,070 Don't you think it's better to talk about it? 363 00:37:27,710 --> 00:37:31,230 Sometimes I think we can talk too much. I don't think we talk enough. 364 00:37:33,090 --> 00:37:34,090 What's the matter? 365 00:37:40,370 --> 00:37:41,630 Okay, David, we'll talk. 366 00:37:44,350 --> 00:37:47,850 I just don't understand why we have to do everything together. 367 00:37:48,960 --> 00:37:51,540 Just because we're lovers doesn't make us inseparable, does it? 368 00:37:52,280 --> 00:37:55,380 I mean, I thought we agreed we wouldn't be possessive. I thought you understood. 369 00:37:55,620 --> 00:38:00,480 I thought we... What's the use? I'm sorry, I don't... And cut this I'm sorry 370 00:38:00,480 --> 00:38:04,060 crap. You make me sound like I'm the one to blame, like I'm the one that's being 371 00:38:04,060 --> 00:38:07,020 difficult to live with. But you hold everything in until you explode. If we 372 00:38:07,020 --> 00:38:08,980 could just talk things out more... Look, 373 00:38:11,580 --> 00:38:15,080 why don't you go on home and I'll meet you back there later. I have some 374 00:38:15,080 --> 00:38:16,080 thinking to do. 375 00:38:16,790 --> 00:38:18,890 Why don't you just come home and sleep it off? 376 00:38:19,790 --> 00:38:21,650 I promise I won't be in the way. 377 00:38:21,890 --> 00:38:25,330 Look, David, I need some time to be by myself. Can't you understand that? 378 00:38:25,710 --> 00:38:26,970 Where are you going this time? 379 00:38:27,550 --> 00:38:28,550 To the bath? 380 00:38:29,170 --> 00:38:30,310 Oh, fuck you. 381 00:39:05,070 --> 00:39:06,070 to sleep by now. 382 00:39:08,050 --> 00:39:09,050 I couldn't sleep. 383 00:39:09,790 --> 00:39:11,070 Why didn't you take a pill? 384 00:39:13,290 --> 00:39:14,290 Where have you been? 385 00:39:15,150 --> 00:39:16,410 We'll talk about that tomorrow. 386 00:39:17,290 --> 00:39:20,350 Mark, please. I won't be able to sleep. I don't want to talk about it now. I'm 387 00:39:20,350 --> 00:39:22,570 tired. We have all day tomorrow. We have now. 388 00:39:23,510 --> 00:39:26,150 Look, David, if you don't shut up, I'm going to go in there and sleep on the 389 00:39:26,150 --> 00:39:27,350 couch. Is that a threat? 390 00:39:28,970 --> 00:39:30,110 Jesus Christ. 391 00:39:30,350 --> 00:39:31,470 Go back to sleep. 392 00:39:44,560 --> 00:39:45,740 So where did you go last night? 393 00:39:47,600 --> 00:39:49,200 Oh, for a walk. 394 00:39:49,460 --> 00:39:50,460 A walk? 395 00:39:51,700 --> 00:39:52,700 To the park. 396 00:39:53,280 --> 00:39:55,140 Okay. You don't have to get upset. 397 00:39:55,740 --> 00:39:57,840 And you don't have to be so jealous. Oh, I know. 398 00:39:58,660 --> 00:40:02,680 I realize that it doesn't mean anything if you're just letting off steam, but... 399 00:40:02,680 --> 00:40:05,660 Look, David, you're just going to have to stop imposing your screwed -up 400 00:40:05,660 --> 00:40:07,140 romantic ideas on my life. 401 00:40:08,100 --> 00:40:11,340 I mean, I can understand why you feel the way you do. 402 00:40:12,010 --> 00:40:14,650 Sleeping around while being married and all that crap. 403 00:40:15,930 --> 00:40:17,470 But I just don't fit into that mold. 404 00:40:19,670 --> 00:40:20,670 I'm liberated. 405 00:40:22,290 --> 00:40:25,690 I'm not quite as traditional as you are. And you know that. You knew that. 406 00:40:28,010 --> 00:40:30,390 I didn't think it would be such a hassle, but it is. 407 00:40:31,510 --> 00:40:33,050 I'm not sure if I know how to handle it. 408 00:40:39,670 --> 00:40:42,050 Well, we're gonna have to do something. We can't go on like this. 409 00:40:43,890 --> 00:40:46,270 Fighting and making up and fighting and making up again. 410 00:40:46,990 --> 00:40:47,990 It's no good. 411 00:40:51,150 --> 00:40:52,150 I've been thinking. 412 00:40:52,190 --> 00:40:53,190 Yeah? 413 00:40:56,310 --> 00:40:57,370 Well, we're in a rut. 414 00:40:58,530 --> 00:41:00,950 I think we should try experimenting with different things. 415 00:41:03,830 --> 00:41:04,830 Like what? 416 00:42:43,610 --> 00:42:45,210 You can imagine what he's doing inside. 417 00:42:46,310 --> 00:42:47,910 I just told him to step it. 418 00:42:49,930 --> 00:42:50,930 Good enough? 419 00:42:54,450 --> 00:42:55,650 You got a wine enema? 420 00:42:56,030 --> 00:42:57,210 A wine enema. 421 00:42:58,390 --> 00:42:59,850 Yeah, it gets you really stoned. 422 00:43:00,090 --> 00:43:02,490 It bypasses the stomach so you don't get sick. 423 00:43:02,810 --> 00:43:09,330 Come on, open up. Come on. 424 00:43:09,950 --> 00:43:11,010 You come back later? 425 00:43:15,720 --> 00:43:16,720 Come on. 426 00:43:17,660 --> 00:43:19,280 I'm sorry. You'll have to come back later. 427 00:43:19,900 --> 00:43:20,900 All right. 428 00:43:21,440 --> 00:43:24,540 I'm going downstairs to take a shower. When I come back, I expect this door to 429 00:43:24,540 --> 00:43:25,540 be open. 430 00:43:42,960 --> 00:43:43,960 You okay? 431 00:43:44,740 --> 00:43:45,740 Sure. 432 00:43:45,900 --> 00:43:47,460 Are you sure you want to go through with it? 433 00:43:48,240 --> 00:43:50,340 Because it's what you brought me out here for, isn't it? 434 00:43:52,240 --> 00:43:55,640 Well, might as well make the best of it. 435 00:45:05,000 --> 00:45:07,840 It's not that I'm uptight or anything, it's just that what do you do if it 436 00:45:07,840 --> 00:45:08,840 doesn't turn you on? 437 00:45:09,920 --> 00:45:11,400 Stupid question that is. 438 00:45:12,200 --> 00:45:13,340 Don't even think about it. 439 00:45:13,880 --> 00:45:15,460 Half the time you don't even know who it is. 440 00:46:34,740 --> 00:46:37,460 It was your idea to come out. It's not mine. 441 00:46:37,820 --> 00:46:38,820 I'm sorry. 442 00:47:25,390 --> 00:47:27,210 I are the same person he was last year. 443 00:47:28,830 --> 00:47:31,690 But you simply won't let go of your romantic notions, will you? 444 00:47:34,010 --> 00:47:36,150 Well, anyway, we're still living together, aren't we? 445 00:47:36,710 --> 00:47:39,370 This is the first thing we're doing together in almost two weeks. 446 00:47:41,050 --> 00:47:44,670 Look, David, we both have our own separate lives to live, and you just 447 00:47:44,670 --> 00:47:47,130 seem to understand that. I understand, but then why be lovers? 448 00:47:47,370 --> 00:47:50,530 I mean, what's the point of living together if we each have our separate 449 00:47:51,120 --> 00:47:55,160 Because we get along so well. Always the wise -ass. You can't ever be serious, 450 00:47:55,300 --> 00:47:56,300 can you? 451 00:47:57,600 --> 00:48:01,080 You know, half the time you avoid the problem by walking away from it, and the 452 00:48:01,080 --> 00:48:02,100 other half you're joking. 453 00:48:02,440 --> 00:48:08,260 If you weren't so hung up with your goddamn masculinity... My stomach's 454 00:48:08,260 --> 00:48:09,260 in knots lately. 455 00:48:10,340 --> 00:48:14,060 It hardly seems to affect you at all. It affects me. So how? 456 00:48:20,490 --> 00:48:22,150 I can't eat. I can't work. 457 00:48:23,990 --> 00:48:28,030 My whole system's fucked up from tension and worrying all the time. Well, don't 458 00:48:28,030 --> 00:48:29,030 worry. 459 00:48:29,110 --> 00:48:30,410 Mark, what are we going to do? 460 00:48:32,230 --> 00:48:35,630 Come on, let's get going. No, wait. Let's talk. Please stay. Let's talk. 461 00:48:35,890 --> 00:48:38,070 You and your talks. There's nothing more to talk about. Mark. 462 00:48:38,290 --> 00:48:41,830 Look, it's cold and I'm tired. Do you mind? Will you wait a minute and listen 463 00:48:41,830 --> 00:48:44,630 me? There's nothing more to be said. Now let go of me. Mark, I'm going to get 464 00:48:44,630 --> 00:48:47,590 through to you if it's the last thing I do. Now you tell me. Leave yourself and 465 00:48:47,590 --> 00:48:48,750 get off my fucking back. 466 00:49:13,260 --> 00:49:14,260 So at least tell me where you're going. 467 00:49:17,340 --> 00:49:19,020 I'll call you when I know where I'll be staying. 468 00:49:34,000 --> 00:49:35,480 I'll pick up the rest of the stuff later. 469 00:50:42,220 --> 00:50:43,540 You know, it's not the end of the world. 470 00:50:46,320 --> 00:50:47,360 Tomorrow's another day. 471 00:50:48,640 --> 00:50:50,540 No one knows that better than I do. 472 00:50:52,980 --> 00:50:57,680 It's funny, whenever I thought of us breaking up, if it ever did happen, I 473 00:50:57,680 --> 00:50:59,420 always thought Mark would be the one to walk out. 474 00:51:01,460 --> 00:51:02,460 It's funny. 475 00:51:03,440 --> 00:51:04,440 Not so strange. 476 00:51:05,100 --> 00:51:07,860 From what you told me about Mark, he never could make decisions. 477 00:51:09,020 --> 00:51:11,040 He's not as secure as he appears to be. 478 00:51:12,910 --> 00:51:13,910 I don't know. 479 00:51:14,570 --> 00:51:17,370 Well, now you listen to me. Now I know those types. 480 00:51:17,910 --> 00:51:20,670 They're in control as long as you let them be in control. 481 00:51:21,070 --> 00:51:22,950 It was you who always had the real power. 482 00:51:23,870 --> 00:51:27,410 You convinced him that you should be lovers and then you moved in with him. 483 00:51:29,010 --> 00:51:32,770 Now that it's over, it's a result of your move again. 484 00:51:34,990 --> 00:51:37,210 Shit, I don't want to control or be controlled. 485 00:51:37,670 --> 00:51:38,870 It wasn't like that. 486 00:51:41,070 --> 00:51:42,070 It was. 487 00:51:43,660 --> 00:51:44,660 And it still is. 488 00:51:47,980 --> 00:51:53,520 Your problem is that you worry too much about the perfect relationship, where 489 00:51:53,520 --> 00:51:56,360 you're always happy and having a good time and sharing. 490 00:51:57,140 --> 00:51:58,960 It's all a lot of crap. It's a myth. 491 00:51:59,980 --> 00:52:01,380 I learned it the hard way. 492 00:52:03,120 --> 00:52:05,280 My trouble used to be that I believed it. 493 00:52:06,180 --> 00:52:07,300 You remember Miguel? 494 00:52:08,440 --> 00:52:12,720 I thought, now here's the person I'd like to spend the rest of my life with. 495 00:52:15,600 --> 00:52:17,700 And I convinced myself into believing it. 496 00:52:20,640 --> 00:52:22,420 But then the same thing happened. 497 00:52:23,460 --> 00:52:25,640 Only this time I became bored with him. 498 00:52:28,780 --> 00:52:30,740 Alas, I got bored with him. 499 00:52:32,740 --> 00:52:33,820 But no more. 500 00:52:34,320 --> 00:52:35,800 I'm through pushing things. 501 00:52:36,820 --> 00:52:39,540 I meet a guy. We hit it off. And we make it. 502 00:52:39,800 --> 00:52:42,640 And that's it. No illusions. No plans for the future. 503 00:52:43,240 --> 00:52:44,820 I enjoy it for what it is. 504 00:52:45,130 --> 00:52:46,130 And just what is it? 505 00:52:48,430 --> 00:52:49,890 Usually some nice company. 506 00:52:50,730 --> 00:52:51,910 Some nice sex. 507 00:52:52,330 --> 00:52:53,690 Sometimes even great sex. 508 00:52:55,090 --> 00:52:58,030 But that's enough. I'm through with expectations. 509 00:52:59,690 --> 00:53:01,330 You've certainly become the cynical. 510 00:53:05,690 --> 00:53:06,930 No, not cynical. 511 00:53:07,990 --> 00:53:09,030 Simply realistic. 512 00:53:10,850 --> 00:53:12,590 Well, I don't think I'm being unrealistic. 513 00:53:13,910 --> 00:53:15,290 Mark and I were in love. 514 00:53:15,910 --> 00:53:18,070 We could have made it together. We still might. 515 00:53:21,490 --> 00:53:26,270 David, don't be a fool and cause yourself unnecessary grief. Accept the 516 00:53:26,270 --> 00:53:27,270 that it's over. 517 00:53:29,850 --> 00:53:32,230 The sooner you get them out of your system, the better. 518 00:53:32,750 --> 00:53:35,010 There's no use making things any worse than they are already. 519 00:53:35,930 --> 00:53:38,070 I can't just not see them anymore. 520 00:53:42,540 --> 00:53:43,780 We've had arguments before. 521 00:53:44,220 --> 00:53:45,220 They blow over. 522 00:53:48,100 --> 00:53:50,540 It's just a little more serious this time, that's all. 523 00:53:52,020 --> 00:53:55,140 We need time to be away from each other, to think things out, that's all. 524 00:53:58,880 --> 00:54:02,180 Well, you're certainly welcome to stay here for the time being. 525 00:54:03,360 --> 00:54:05,480 You know, it's not the kind of time that you want to be alone. 526 00:54:06,900 --> 00:54:08,760 Thanks, Alan. I really appreciate it. 527 00:54:11,400 --> 00:54:14,260 You know, you're one of the few people that I can actually talk to. 528 00:54:15,960 --> 00:54:17,580 Something Mark could never understand. 529 00:54:22,140 --> 00:54:23,160 Well, how do you feel now? 530 00:54:26,080 --> 00:54:28,240 Have you had dinner? 531 00:54:30,760 --> 00:54:33,100 Why don't you have something? There's some leftover meatloaf. 532 00:54:33,340 --> 00:54:34,620 Come on, you'll feel better. 533 00:55:00,360 --> 00:55:02,540 I guess it wasn't a very good idea seeing each other today. 534 00:55:04,300 --> 00:55:05,300 It's good seeing you. 535 00:55:08,820 --> 00:55:09,820 How's work? 536 00:55:10,040 --> 00:55:11,040 Oh, okay. 537 00:55:11,680 --> 00:55:12,900 The kids are getting restless. 538 00:55:13,240 --> 00:55:14,400 Spring fever, I guess. 539 00:55:16,680 --> 00:55:17,680 I've missed you, Mark. 540 00:55:20,600 --> 00:55:21,600 I've missed you, too. 541 00:55:24,880 --> 00:55:26,100 Hey, how's your stomach? 542 00:55:26,420 --> 00:55:28,820 Better. See, time can heal wounds. 543 00:55:30,430 --> 00:55:31,430 Yeah. 544 00:55:36,510 --> 00:55:38,110 Have you been seeing anyone lately? 545 00:55:40,390 --> 00:55:41,390 Not really. 546 00:55:43,970 --> 00:55:44,970 How about you? 547 00:55:45,930 --> 00:55:46,930 Nah. 548 00:55:47,770 --> 00:55:48,850 I've had a couple tricks. 549 00:55:50,130 --> 00:55:51,470 Actually, I've been playing it cool. 550 00:55:53,230 --> 00:55:56,810 I've been pretty busy at the office, you know. I usually get finished around 8 o 551 00:55:56,810 --> 00:55:59,590 'clock, and by then I'm so exhausted I just want to come home and collapse. 552 00:56:09,230 --> 00:56:10,650 I'm supposed to go to a bar with Alan. 553 00:56:12,290 --> 00:56:16,450 Do you think he'd be annoyed if you changed your plans? 554 00:56:18,530 --> 00:56:19,650 I don't think so. Why? 555 00:56:21,250 --> 00:56:22,690 I thought you could come home with me. 556 00:56:26,510 --> 00:56:27,510 I don't know. 557 00:56:31,490 --> 00:56:35,290 Would that be a good idea? I mean, what would it mean? 558 00:56:37,550 --> 00:56:38,790 Why does it have to mean anything? 559 00:56:39,430 --> 00:56:40,430 You said you're listening. 560 00:56:41,810 --> 00:56:43,490 I do, but not only sexually. 561 00:56:45,130 --> 00:56:46,990 I don't think it'd be good for my head. 562 00:56:49,350 --> 00:56:50,350 What do you think? 563 00:56:52,470 --> 00:56:53,470 Hell, I don't know. 564 00:56:54,570 --> 00:56:56,530 We could try and see. 565 00:56:59,630 --> 00:57:01,210 I can't figure you out, Mark. 566 00:57:02,130 --> 00:57:03,130 Well, don't try. 567 00:57:04,170 --> 00:57:05,170 Come on, let's go. 568 00:57:06,250 --> 00:57:07,710 I want to suck your cock. 569 00:57:07,930 --> 00:57:08,930 Jesus, Mark. 570 00:57:09,130 --> 00:57:10,270 How can you say that? 571 00:57:10,590 --> 00:57:13,890 You said you missed me, didn't you? But how do you expect me to forget what's 572 00:57:13,890 --> 00:57:14,890 happened between us? 573 00:57:15,330 --> 00:57:18,590 You think I'm just a trick you can pick up and ball and then ask to leave? 574 00:57:19,010 --> 00:57:21,510 David, don't. Oh, you want me available when you're in the mood. 575 00:57:22,630 --> 00:57:24,330 How can you treat me like that? 576 00:57:25,490 --> 00:57:29,770 Look, David, I obviously have feelings for you. Do you think I'd be here if I 577 00:57:29,770 --> 00:57:30,770 didn't? 578 00:57:30,950 --> 00:57:34,110 Now, let's not try to solve all our problems in one afternoon, okay? 579 00:57:36,640 --> 00:57:39,000 Look, the point is now I want to go to bed with you. 580 00:57:39,820 --> 00:57:41,040 Do you want to go to bed with me? 581 00:57:50,620 --> 00:57:57,360 We were together 582 00:57:57,360 --> 00:57:59,240 Sunday for the first time in almost a month. 583 00:58:02,360 --> 00:58:03,640 He asked me to stay over. 584 00:58:07,880 --> 00:58:11,400 I didn't want to, but I missed him. 585 00:58:15,100 --> 00:58:16,740 David, you're looking for trouble. 586 00:58:18,940 --> 00:58:25,920 All we could 587 00:58:25,920 --> 00:58:26,920 do was reminisce. 588 00:58:28,760 --> 00:58:31,160 We couldn't talk about our present, our feelings. 589 00:58:31,400 --> 00:58:32,400 It was damn awkward. 590 00:58:34,900 --> 00:58:37,020 Did you really expect things to change? 591 00:58:37,880 --> 00:58:38,880 I didn't know. 592 00:58:39,880 --> 00:58:41,480 I still think I love him, Alan. 593 00:58:42,300 --> 00:58:43,680 It still turns me on. 594 00:58:45,740 --> 00:58:47,320 But things weren't the same then. 595 00:58:48,900 --> 00:58:49,900 What do you mean? 596 00:58:50,800 --> 00:58:52,640 I felt as if I were being tested. 597 00:58:53,560 --> 00:58:56,220 Being used. I felt like an object in an experiment. 598 00:58:59,160 --> 00:59:02,620 It was almost as though he were trying to figure out if he were over me yet. 599 00:59:05,240 --> 00:59:06,800 Yeah, well, that sounds like Mark. 600 00:59:12,270 --> 00:59:13,270 I'll get it. 601 00:59:14,170 --> 00:59:15,810 Hi. What's your name? 602 00:59:17,250 --> 00:59:18,250 You have a cute daughter. 603 00:59:18,770 --> 00:59:19,770 Thank you. 604 00:59:21,010 --> 00:59:22,610 Did you thank the man for the ball? 605 00:59:44,680 --> 00:59:45,680 I'd love to. 606 00:59:49,220 --> 00:59:50,420 Why don't you try the bath? 607 00:59:51,960 --> 00:59:53,140 I don't think I'd like it. 608 00:59:54,500 --> 00:59:56,420 David, you take everything so seriously. 609 00:59:57,060 --> 00:59:58,980 Go ahead. It'll take your mind off your troubles. 610 01:04:22,190 --> 01:04:26,250 feelings about gay pride i'm quite proud of myself well not proud i'm very 611 01:04:26,250 --> 01:04:31,750 accepting of myself and other gay people i'm bisexual myself and you know i 612 01:04:31,750 --> 01:04:35,030 think everybody should be able to let live and do as they see fit in their own 613 01:04:35,030 --> 01:04:40,610 sexual life this means that we can walk the streets as ourselves and not be 614 01:04:40,610 --> 01:04:45,810 harassed by anybody and just be ourselves be proud to be ourselves 615 01:04:45,810 --> 01:04:46,810 welcome 616 01:04:51,530 --> 01:04:55,330 Just exchange the words faggot for nigger, kike, or cunt at the appropriate 617 01:04:55,330 --> 01:04:58,010 time. It's all part of the same mentality. 618 01:04:58,550 --> 01:05:01,190 It's an inability to cope with human diversity. 619 01:05:03,210 --> 01:05:07,210 It's a pretty fucked up society when the army gives me a medal for killing a man 620 01:05:07,210 --> 01:05:10,470 and a dishonorable discharge for loving him. 621 01:05:11,030 --> 01:05:14,310 I think we need a radically new definition of what it means to be 622 01:05:30,670 --> 01:05:33,710 I think gay people may very well be performing an historic function. 623 01:05:34,450 --> 01:05:38,570 I mean in the sense that they're undermining the ridiculous notion in our 624 01:05:38,570 --> 01:05:42,330 society that you can only have sex with one person, and that's the person you're 625 01:05:42,330 --> 01:05:43,330 married to. 626 01:05:43,470 --> 01:05:47,110 The public always goes looking for role -playing, who's dominant, who's 627 01:05:47,110 --> 01:05:50,630 submissive. The great thing about gay relationship is that you both come into 628 01:05:50,630 --> 01:05:52,530 relationship as two equal human beings. 629 01:05:54,770 --> 01:05:58,950 For me, being gay means not limiting my feelings to one person. 630 01:05:59,500 --> 01:06:04,000 But it's also not being afraid to commit my feelings to one person many times 631 01:06:04,000 --> 01:06:05,000 over. 632 01:06:20,400 --> 01:06:27,020 That definitely is a need. 633 01:06:27,480 --> 01:06:31,340 the homosexual to be free and what he does and what he does in bed, but I 634 01:06:31,340 --> 01:06:35,600 think it's something that should be having to be protested. I think it 635 01:06:35,600 --> 01:06:38,880 just come very natural. It's an innate part of you, something to appreciate. 636 01:06:39,600 --> 01:06:43,500 We preach in our church that people should be proud of themselves, proud of 637 01:06:43,500 --> 01:06:47,240 being gay in all parts of their life, and being gay is good, so one should be 638 01:06:47,240 --> 01:06:48,178 proud of it. 639 01:06:48,180 --> 01:06:53,080 Being able to live your life, live it the way you see it, and not being 640 01:06:53,080 --> 01:06:55,200 of loving one of your own sex. 641 01:06:55,480 --> 01:07:01,120 It means that I'm very... proud of my son and that I want to fight all 642 01:07:01,120 --> 01:07:03,860 and bigotry for all gay people. 643 01:07:08,440 --> 01:07:15,040 In which a million of our brothers and sisters were scooped up off the streets 644 01:07:15,040 --> 01:07:20,520 of Europe and taken to that place and there submitted to the ultimate solution 645 01:07:20,520 --> 01:07:23,940 to gayness incinerated and turned into soap. 646 01:07:25,140 --> 01:07:30,040 Never again, never again will we allow this to happen. 647 01:07:43,060 --> 01:07:46,480 It means getting out and making the people realize that all these years 648 01:07:46,480 --> 01:07:49,280 been wrong about what they've been thinking about us. It was a celebration, 649 01:07:49,280 --> 01:07:51,880 know, not so much a political thing. I'm not very political. 650 01:07:52,490 --> 01:07:57,830 But for me, it was a celebration of just who I am and being with other gay 651 01:07:57,830 --> 01:07:58,830 people. 652 01:07:59,530 --> 01:08:04,010 I don't know. All I know is I'm gay and I'm proud and I worked for it and I'll 653 01:08:04,010 --> 01:08:05,970 continue to work for it until the day I die. 654 01:08:06,430 --> 01:08:11,090 And I have no qualms about it. And if anybody wants to fight me about it, 655 01:08:11,090 --> 01:08:12,910 may not be too big, but I got big shoes. 656 01:08:14,830 --> 01:08:18,130 I don't know. It just means that I'm glad to be what I am, a lesbian. 657 01:08:18,560 --> 01:08:21,520 I think it's important that we all came out today, and I'm glad that I came out 658 01:08:21,520 --> 01:08:25,479 today, even though it's going to be on film all over wherever it's going to be. 659 01:08:26,100 --> 01:08:27,460 Let them see. I'm out. 660 01:08:55,819 --> 01:08:56,819 the first march you've been on. 661 01:08:57,800 --> 01:08:58,960 Actually, I was just watching. 662 01:08:59,180 --> 01:09:01,600 I wasn't really in the march. I just happened by. 663 01:09:01,880 --> 01:09:04,140 You sound apologetic. 664 01:09:04,760 --> 01:09:05,760 Not really. 665 01:09:05,960 --> 01:09:09,300 I'm just not a very political person. I was very hung up with ideology at one 666 01:09:09,300 --> 01:09:13,279 point in my life. So now I'm pretty skeptical about causes or soapboxes. And 667 01:09:13,279 --> 01:09:14,620 that's what you think this is all about? 668 01:09:15,479 --> 01:09:17,899 I don't say I'm against it. I'm just skeptical. 669 01:09:20,700 --> 01:09:23,560 I just never knew enough about it to become involved with it. 670 01:09:24,200 --> 01:09:27,979 I never felt I had to advertise my homosexuality. I don't go out of my way 671 01:09:27,979 --> 01:09:30,819 conceal it, except perhaps at work where I keep my social life to myself. 672 01:09:32,140 --> 01:09:33,819 There's a lot of people who think like that. 673 01:09:36,319 --> 01:09:40,080 I'm just not so sure that marching down 7th Avenue shouting gay is good is going 674 01:09:40,080 --> 01:09:41,800 to change the way straight people feel about it. 675 01:09:42,720 --> 01:09:45,680 You can't say that shutting up about it's done much good either. 676 01:09:46,080 --> 01:09:49,740 It doesn't matter to me whether they like us or not. I just simply think that 677 01:09:49,740 --> 01:09:51,439 gay people ought to have their rights too. 678 01:09:52,700 --> 01:09:55,860 Sometimes you've got to make noise and organize to get things changed. 679 01:09:56,560 --> 01:09:58,540 To me, I guess that's what this march is all about. 680 01:09:59,720 --> 01:10:03,560 I don't believe that coming out for one day a year is going to liberate these 681 01:10:03,560 --> 01:10:05,200 people or change the system that much. 682 01:10:06,000 --> 01:10:09,100 I mean, how many of these people who march today will go back in their 683 01:10:09,100 --> 01:10:10,940 tomorrow, afraid to even talk about it? 684 01:10:13,600 --> 01:10:14,600 Probably right. 685 01:10:14,900 --> 01:10:16,880 Some of them. I'm a teacher. Right. 686 01:10:18,740 --> 01:10:22,820 Being... Well, letting people at work know that I'm gay would complicate 687 01:10:22,900 --> 01:10:23,900 to say the least. 688 01:10:24,340 --> 01:10:26,540 And does coming out mean I tell the kids, too? 689 01:10:27,820 --> 01:10:30,200 I enjoy my work. 690 01:10:30,460 --> 01:10:34,280 Being completely honest about my personal life will jeopardize my 691 01:10:34,280 --> 01:10:35,280 life. 692 01:10:35,380 --> 01:10:37,660 And whether I like it or not, that's the way it is. 693 01:10:37,940 --> 01:10:39,920 For me and for many of these people, too. 694 01:10:41,380 --> 01:10:45,880 I mean, we can't always be as honest as we like to be. But that's exactly what 695 01:10:45,880 --> 01:10:47,480 this march is trying to do something about. 696 01:10:47,760 --> 01:10:49,020 I mean, yeah, I know you're right. 697 01:10:49,400 --> 01:10:53,160 The way that society is now, there are certain people who can't afford to 698 01:10:53,620 --> 01:10:57,040 So those who can, do it on behalf of those who can't. 699 01:10:57,320 --> 01:11:01,240 And that in hopes that someday there'll be no need to demonstrate the right to 700 01:11:01,240 --> 01:11:04,120 make love to anybody you want, any way you want. 701 01:11:04,920 --> 01:11:06,420 Well, you gotta start somewhere. 702 01:11:07,940 --> 01:11:08,940 I suppose. 703 01:11:14,440 --> 01:11:15,800 Really got carried away. 704 01:11:16,120 --> 01:11:17,260 Yeah, we really did. 705 01:11:36,140 --> 01:11:37,140 It's about a year. 706 01:11:40,200 --> 01:11:43,720 I guess I've been too busy surviving and putting myself back together after Mark 707 01:11:43,720 --> 01:11:45,120 to take on the world's problems yet. 708 01:11:47,960 --> 01:11:50,400 Liberating myself is the most important thing for me right now. 709 01:11:50,660 --> 01:11:52,920 Well, it's really all part of the same thing, isn't it? 710 01:11:54,260 --> 01:11:55,260 Maybe. 711 01:12:00,740 --> 01:12:02,560 It's separated for almost a year now. 712 01:12:03,180 --> 01:12:05,160 The divorce will be final in a couple of months. 713 01:12:10,940 --> 01:12:11,780 Why do 714 01:12:11,780 --> 01:12:27,700 people 715 01:12:27,700 --> 01:12:30,760 bother to get married in the first place? 716 01:12:32,420 --> 01:12:33,420 Why did you get? 717 01:12:33,960 --> 01:12:35,540 I keep going through changes. 718 01:12:37,610 --> 01:12:39,610 So say, I know myself better now. 719 01:12:41,010 --> 01:12:42,010 And you? 720 01:12:42,210 --> 01:12:44,490 I mean, do you ever see the guy that you were living with? 721 01:12:46,130 --> 01:12:47,130 No, not anymore. 722 01:12:48,190 --> 01:12:49,890 We were seeing each other for a while. 723 01:12:51,230 --> 01:12:56,250 But we kept looking for things that I guess just weren't there. 724 01:12:58,870 --> 01:12:59,870 It's over now. 725 01:13:01,170 --> 01:13:04,710 And I'm not as depressed and desperate anymore. 726 01:13:05,330 --> 01:13:06,330 I'm desperate. 727 01:13:09,710 --> 01:13:10,710 For your body. 728 01:13:10,870 --> 01:13:12,910 I've been hot for you all day. Oh. 729 01:13:13,870 --> 01:13:17,130 I hadn't noticed. I thought we were just coming back here to have something to 730 01:13:17,130 --> 01:13:18,470 eat. That's what I need. 731 01:13:19,150 --> 01:13:20,150 I'm starving. 732 01:13:59,240 --> 01:14:00,240 couple of weeks. 733 01:14:01,780 --> 01:14:02,780 Then what? 734 01:14:03,220 --> 01:14:05,120 I've kind of been neglecting PJ. 735 01:14:07,480 --> 01:14:10,980 My mom and dad have been more parents to him than I have babysitting him. 736 01:14:11,780 --> 01:14:14,260 I really have to spend more time with him. 737 01:14:15,600 --> 01:14:20,520 Anyway, I'll have my degree by February, and my friend Ann says that she's going 738 01:14:20,520 --> 01:14:23,020 to keep her eyes open if his job opens up at school. 739 01:14:24,060 --> 01:14:26,640 It's pretty hard finding a job in the middle of the semester, isn't it? 740 01:14:27,420 --> 01:14:28,420 Yeah, but... 741 01:14:29,160 --> 01:14:32,260 Ann says that someone usually gets pregnant and has to leave. 742 01:14:33,380 --> 01:14:34,700 So maybe I'll get lucky. 743 01:14:35,020 --> 01:14:36,020 And get pregnant. 744 01:14:39,040 --> 01:14:40,040 Look, 745 01:14:40,260 --> 01:14:43,240 I'm covering a concert at Madison Square Friday night. Do you want to go with 746 01:14:43,240 --> 01:14:45,840 me? Does that mean I have to carry your equipment? 747 01:14:46,900 --> 01:14:50,100 Well, maybe just a couple of cameras. 748 01:14:50,900 --> 01:14:52,160 Sounds like old time. 749 01:14:53,920 --> 01:14:56,680 Say, since we're extending invitations to each other... 750 01:14:56,940 --> 01:15:00,180 I was wondering if maybe you'd like to spend Labor Day weekend with us in the 751 01:15:00,180 --> 01:15:01,180 Hampton. 752 01:15:02,580 --> 01:15:04,020 It would be great for PJ. 753 01:15:04,960 --> 01:15:07,660 And... Well, it was my folks' idea. 754 01:15:08,220 --> 01:15:09,580 They'd really like to see you. 755 01:15:10,540 --> 01:15:12,680 Look, I've made other plans. I'm going to the Cape. 756 01:15:13,340 --> 01:15:14,560 Can't you change your plans? 757 01:15:17,600 --> 01:15:18,680 I'm going with somebody. 758 01:15:23,180 --> 01:15:24,180 Look, you'd like him. 759 01:15:25,320 --> 01:15:26,480 He's got eyes like yours. 760 01:15:29,000 --> 01:15:30,620 No, not exactly like yours. 761 01:15:34,320 --> 01:15:35,880 You know, I can really talk to him. 762 01:15:39,560 --> 01:15:40,940 He likes Emily Dickinson. 763 01:17:33,420 --> 01:17:35,700 Do you believe it? Three days of rain? 764 01:17:39,880 --> 01:17:40,880 Say he. 765 01:17:41,380 --> 01:17:42,380 He. 766 01:17:47,300 --> 01:17:48,300 From Oz. 767 01:17:51,340 --> 01:17:53,000 Provolone. Say I love you. 768 01:17:53,400 --> 01:17:54,840 Ah, I love you. 769 01:17:55,140 --> 01:17:56,200 I need you. 770 01:18:04,330 --> 01:18:05,690 Absolutely cannot live without you. 771 01:18:06,670 --> 01:18:09,050 I absolutely cannot live without you. 772 01:18:12,630 --> 01:18:13,870 Then why don't we live together? 773 01:18:15,110 --> 01:18:16,490 Then why don't we live together? 774 01:18:16,750 --> 01:18:18,070 I didn't think you'd ever ask me. 775 01:18:18,550 --> 01:18:19,550 But I didn't. 776 01:18:20,290 --> 01:18:21,490 Have you thought about it? 777 01:18:23,130 --> 01:18:25,010 Of course I have, believe me. 778 01:18:26,270 --> 01:18:28,950 But I'm very wary of putting myself in that position again. 779 01:18:30,730 --> 01:18:34,650 I'm not as aware of who I am yet as I'd like to be, at least before I live with 780 01:18:34,650 --> 01:18:35,650 someone again. 781 01:18:36,550 --> 01:18:37,750 Can't we work it out together? 782 01:18:38,630 --> 01:18:39,850 We do, Nathan. 783 01:18:41,330 --> 01:18:43,390 But we don't have to live together to do that. 784 01:18:47,230 --> 01:18:49,330 Now we're spending all of our time together. 785 01:18:49,730 --> 01:18:51,370 And that's because we want to. 786 01:18:51,870 --> 01:18:53,570 You want to and I want to. 787 01:18:54,870 --> 01:18:58,310 But somehow when two people live together, want to gets mixed up with 788 01:18:59,050 --> 01:19:02,550 I don't want you to ever have to do anything for me, and I don't ever want 789 01:19:02,550 --> 01:19:03,610 have to do anything for you. 790 01:19:04,070 --> 01:19:07,050 For now, let's just enjoy wanting to be together. 791 01:19:07,970 --> 01:19:10,290 What you're trying to tell me is that you're afraid of commitment. 792 01:19:11,570 --> 01:19:14,810 I am committed to you, Jason, but not probably the way you want me. 793 01:19:23,410 --> 01:19:27,110 Look, Jason, after Mark, I thought I would never want to live with anyone 794 01:19:27,110 --> 01:19:28,110 again. 795 01:19:29,450 --> 01:19:32,870 And yet when I met him for the first time, I was as much in love with him and 796 01:19:32,870 --> 01:19:34,970 involved with him as I believe we are with each other. 797 01:19:39,010 --> 01:19:45,550 But I pushed it, and we moved in together, and then a year and a half 798 01:19:45,550 --> 01:19:46,550 don't even see each other. 799 01:19:47,570 --> 01:19:50,150 I can look back and say, okay, I was wrong. 800 01:19:51,050 --> 01:19:54,130 And that's good, because I don't waste any time longing for him. 801 01:19:55,350 --> 01:19:57,270 And I can start looking for someone else. 802 01:20:02,060 --> 01:20:03,940 But I don't want to do that for the rest of my life either. 803 01:20:04,720 --> 01:20:08,540 You can end up searching for Mr. Wright for as long as you live. 804 01:20:24,380 --> 01:20:25,380 Look. 805 01:20:28,040 --> 01:20:31,240 I know that what I'm asking for very few people can give me. 806 01:20:32,910 --> 01:20:34,310 But I believe they're all equal. 807 01:20:50,670 --> 01:20:51,670 Okay.